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About Me Member Fantasy Artist fetishfaerie24/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 6 Years
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Art and Mortality

Thu Aug 13, 2009, 5:39 PM
For months now I've been having minor to major panic attacks about the hard fact of life: death. My own end. Losing touch with the world. The unknown. It was horribly depressing because it was constant (at least 2 or 3 times a day), like some heavy shadow riding my shoulders and making it difficult to enjoy living. I couldn't shake it and I thought I'd be cursed to live out the rest of my life like this. .. filled with dread.


Strangely enough, the other day I was driving by this building that used to be a print store. When I was 13 and 14, I used to walk by it all the time with my then friend, Jen. I used to dream of one day having art prints and photo prints worthy of hanging. I wanted to be a real artist. I always wanted to go in and find out prices and what sort of things they did, but I never had the courage.
The store closed years ago, and now it's some commercial crap... but it made me remember.
And in remembering, and then realizing that my apartment is chock full of my own artwork hanging up on the walls, and large framed prints of my photographs... the weight lifted.

I cried.

I am an artist. I always have been. I always will be. My life revolves around the simple act of creating, and I am becoming more aware, more skilled, and more courageous.

My love of beauty, of creativity, of sharing - it will keep me breathing. It will keep me free.

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:iconfetishfaerie-photos: Photography :iconfetishfaerie-model: Modeling :iconfetishfaerie-stock: Stock

  • Listening to: The Steady Sound of Breathing
  • Eating: Bran Muffins

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  • Current Residence: Two inches to the left of myself
  • Interests: Elves, mermaids, vampires, dragons, and beauty.
  • Favourite movie: Right now it's 300 and The Prestige.
  • Favourite band or musician: Nine Inch Nails
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything that sounds good.
  • Favourite artist: John William Waterhouse
  • Favourite poet or writer: Oscar Wilde, Virginia Woolf, Kahlil Gibran.
  • Favourite photographer: Howard Schatz, Cindy Sherman.
  • Favourite game: DOOM and solitaire
  • Favourite cartoon character: Batman or MacBeth from Gargoyles
  • Personal Quote: "Shiver me timbers!"
  • Tools of the Trade: Anything

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Comments


:iconartforheart:
Thanks for the fav! :sun:

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:iconchryssalis:
Thank you for the wonderful stock!I used one here
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:iconneo5842:
Hi, i have used your stock for my image Madend of Atlantis [link]

Many thanks links below, take care Neo :0)
model 1 [link] By :iconmagickstock:

model 2 [link] By :iconfetishfaerie:

model 3 [link] By :iconeli-exposed-stock:

model 4 [link] By :iconsinned-angel-stock:

Background personal stock photography

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:iconbillwill:
I used your stock. Thanks. [link]
:iconatermishammerstein:
Thanks for the stock pictures again! I used another one in here
[link]

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:iconstaceyjaine:
Hello! I used your stock here:[link]


Thank you so much!
:iconmedusa-thedollmaker:
Thank you for the fav! :boogie:

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:iconsubaku-kun:
thanks so much for the fav! :hug:

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All true artists, whether they know it or not, create from a place of no-mind, from inner stillness.
:icongalloping-freedom:
a friend of mine on Equintium has used your stock here: [link]

she does not have a dA, so i am letting you know :)
:icongreenviggen:
Hi Natalie! thank you for the nice comment ! . :hug: and I like your dreaming! :D

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